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Birthday, sun and springtime

Sunday was the vernal equinox, the day offered sun, love and happiness. Went up 6.30 and ate breakfast, took a nice shower where I got my hair washed by M. How luxurious is not it? Getting your hair washed 😌 Bedded the bed and waited for it to be 9.45!

Went and picked up my best friend and sister Amanda for a luxury breakfast / coffee at Sjömans. It was so cozy, we talked a lot, laughed and there were only two of us. Long since we hade time without children (she has 2 that I love but sometimes they are nice to just be us and be able to talk about things we can not talk about when the children are with). If you are visiting Köping, you must visit Sjomans bakery, they have such a cozy room, friendly staff and wonderful treats to eat! After our coffee, I went to the pharmacy and picked up my medicine, have come up with free cards for medicines, it has never happened to me before. Took Amanda home to me where we talked a bit with M, showed how I had refurnished (do it quite often).

Then at about 12.3o we drove her home, bought an MCD with us out to dad’s where a party was approaching. It was me, M, mother, father, brother and his two children (will call them E and A). It was the first time my brother and his 2 little ones got to meet M. They went well, so when it comes to the children, A felt comfortable pretty fast and we played games and built lego. E was a little more careful, but they lightened up pretty fast. She is 2 years old and so lovely. She talks and says things that I melt from hearing. The best thing is that there are 2 dog stuffed animals out there, a purple dachshund that is big and a small baby toy dachshund with a bell in it. The little one is hers .. and the big one is my dad’s (her faffa, Granddad) and as soon as he releases it and does something otherwise she takes it and looks for him because he should have it all the time.

Decided to go for ice cream instead of cake, it was my birthday we celebrated a day in advance I forgot to write, then lots of play, games and out in the sun. We played football with A he is so good at it, and so fun that he and M found each other.

E walked around and checked the situation a bit, my mother showed her the anemones that grow out there. ”Blau bleomma” as she said. After that, my mother picked up snowdrops for her. She was so happy, until it broke and she thought ”faffa” would fix it… we picked a new one instead.

At about 16.30 everyone went home. I got the absolute best birthday present in soooo long, a new microwave from grandma and mom. My old man had to move out on the balcony after it started to smell burnt. It was my Sunday.

Monday 21/3 my birthday, I turned 32 years old. Woke up with breakfast in bed, it does not happen often or think they never happened 😂. Of course I rocked the socks! Made me ready for school, picked up my tools from my internship and fixed some things on EKO and Biltema. Did as I always do…

Went home, cooked lunch and booked laundry time.

First 13-16 but when we came down ngn washed and had put padlocks on. Could not bother or look for the man who washes (are many apartments) so changed to 16-19.

Went well until we went down to fix the last wash that was in the machine. It had locked due to a strange error. So we tried to find that thing that allows you to open the machine even though they are, for example, power outages. We tried for 15 minutes maybe before I called Securitas who came down .. he had to call a colleague who was allowed to come and look… we did for 1 hour! Tried with everything, they unscrewed the ”lid” on the washing machine and then the front .. then we found that emergency opener… after 1h!

And then the laundry was really wet… but was so tired and just ready to cry, so they turned out, put in the dryer and then hope for the best. They had not dried completely so hung in the bathroom overnight and realize that the laundry must be washed again as they are detergent and rinse aid in the…. Do not even remember the last time I felt so irritated and bitter.

But otherwise it was a good birthday, promised myself that next year I will not wash on my birthday!

Did the internship assignment and submitted it today, it feels good. Deadline for submission is 28/3.
I decided to take a morning shower, watched some TV and been doing nothing special. Replanted one of my palms as the pot it stands in leaked water all over the floor. Planted even though some of my palettes… did some of them \yesterday too but the rest today.

Now it’s time to watch a little more TV and just relax 🙂

/Liljekonvaljens Kammare

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Sunny weekend

This weekend has offered so much sun so wonderful. The birds have gone completely crazy and got spring feelings, really hope that spring now comes with a little more heat and much less snow.

It felt so unnecessary with a blizzard and shit. Lost hope right away.

But is so happy anyway, smiles all the time and is so filled with butterflies in my whole body. I can’t believe that another human being can make you feel this way. Did not think it was possible. Not after everything I went through.

But it feels so heavenly good and I feel good about it. Feeling safe and taken care of, in a good way. He makes me feel seen and I feel comfortable in his company.

We are taking it slow and are getting to know each other properly, so it feels good that we are both on the same level.

In addition, it’s nice that he also has ADHD and understands me better than others on those planes. Not many others understand what it is like to live with that diagnosis.

Now I’ll watch some TV and later go to celebrate my brother who turns 33 tomorrow (actually 29/2) Then there are only 21 days left until my birthday… wow!

Hope you all had a super nice weekend and get off to a good start this week.

/ Liljekonvaljens Kammare

I wish that I would have seen the northern light when it was here… I borrowed this picture from google.

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I do not know what to write for the title, there is so much in my head with everything.
Sick with earache and fever, pain in the whole body, panic over the entrepreneurship that must be submitted tomorrow Sunday.

And I feel extremely useless.

Do not understand how the hell it could have become like this ..I felt so good and everything felt so good and now I am at the bottom of the depths again.

And if it was not hard enough, a very close friend of the family passed away… my grandfather’s special person.. we always called her Aunt S… she was the closest I had to grandma.
I understand that it is a part of life, but it hurts just as much every time. Even though she was 94 years old, it came as a shock.

Since 2018, someone close to me has passed away… one every year since then… my biggest fear now is losing my beloved B-L (grandmother) only she has left now (besides my family). The person I love so much and with whom I can share everything. It was her I called when I entered the education, it is her I only call when I have something to tell… I know that the day will come when I have to say goodbye. But oh wow I hope they do not happen in the next 25 years (it is not impossible) !!!

Life goes in waves, but right now it feels like an extreme roller coaster.

/Liljekonvaljens Kammare

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Crappy weather

Holy shit!!!

Woke up today, pulled back the curtain and was met by snow chaos…. So I quickly got ready to go to school. Decided pretty fast to go extra early.

Wanted to be able to drive as carefully as possible.

Slippery, unpretentious and generally uncomfortable. The tires took tracks and I almost ended up in the woods…And other cars… Which was close and did not keep a proper distance, trucks that drove at high speed and threw up snow on the window so you wobbled to… was tense all the way and felt great discomfort.

Four times I was close to ending up in the ditch.. Even though I was driving carefully, it led to anxiety, palpitations and panic.

So now I am sitting in the classroom and shaking like an aspen leaf in a storm… I don’t know how this day should end…

I had such a fantastic weekend with lots of joy and love… and now this…

Went home earlier yesterday .. felt dizzy and really weird in the body. Took the temperature right when I got home… 38.9 no wonder I felt a little unwell…

I went to lay down on the couch after taking fever depressant and fell asleep immediately…

Luckily I was taken care of by M later… super nice.

Woke up with a fever today too, but not at all as hungover… so it will be a slow Tuesday for me….

/Liljekonvaljens Kammare